Today was hard. I am in a very bad mood right now, so sorry in advance if I say something not so nice, but I want to be honest about this journey. Day 2 has been hard, I have not cheated AT ALL, but it would not be hard to do. The smell of Sam's pizza for supper is about to push me over the edge.
Right now I don't know what is worse being overweight or the way I feel. I read yesterday that I could expect back pain and let me tell you I am having some back pain. I could barely get out of bed. I am no stranger to back issues, but this is different just pure hell. My stomach has hurt off and on all day instead of peeing all day I am well you know.
I am feeling very overwhelmed at the moment. 23 more days of this it has got to get better. Part of me just wants to take a bite of something I know I can't have, but with this diet if I were to cheat what I have accomplished in these short days would be for nothing. This diet is to retrain my brain, it is to get my metabolism back to where it is suppose to be. I wish I could retrain my brain to 1990 I weighed 100lbs soaking wet. I don't want to be 100lbs again I just want to be healthy.
Yesterday I got my test results from some lab work I had on Friday. My doc called and said I am putting you on Lipitor for your cholesterol, I said "WHAT MY TOTAL WAS 176 ANYTHING 100-199 IS NORMAL" Well since he has the MD behind his name and I don't I guess he knows best. I boiled on this all night so I called this am and said please give me one month to do this on my own. Well I won this war for now in one month I will get tested again and if it is high I will go on meds.
Well I have rambled on enough tonight I have an apple calling my name. Stay tuned to see what happens tomorrow.
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