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Well today is day 3. LORD help me, what have I done. I could just about sit here and cry at the way I feel right now and how I let this happen. Growing up I was a skinny petite person. I could eat and eat and never gain weight. THEN I HAD to have cancer and my life has physically sucked ever since.

I know I keep blaming the cancer for being overweight, BUT IT IS CANCER'S FAULT. I know I made the choice to put it in my mouth but the meds made me crave food 24/7 and I was just thinking about surviving rather than gaining weight.

Ok enough of this pity party. I have still struggled today as well. I feel like I have lost the last bit of energy I have left. I have got to try to find some recipes to make things appealing. With so little choices I can have food is becoming a chore for me. It is almost easier just not to eat. I look at food and get sick to my stomach. I know I have to eat to stay alive and to keep loosing. As of this morning I have lost 10LBS. This does make it a bit easier when you see the pounds drop off.

Hope everyone has a goodnight. Please keep me in your prayers.